Perfect

Perfection is possible.

I've tried, but now I won't accept anything less. To live with it, denying myself, is to merge with the standards of the world, of man. I will not cave.

Did you see? Look what happened. Look what happened when you joined hands with fools... "we all fall down..." You fell and you couldn't get up. Not even now. Scraping bloody knees and elbows and the palms of your hands raw to the bone. Threads of muscle, and tendons swinging. Careful- body parts are expensive to replace.

Don't use euphemisms. I'm just not good enough for you, for the world.- say it.

I respect you, therefore I don't lie to you. Don't humiliate me further. But you'll just never tell the truth (I might have added "will you?" but that was a time when I could still hope). It wasn't always like this was it? Nope. Might have been for you, but not for me. My trust is the fragility of a 125 year old woman. I think you broke her neck.

I'm walking with eyes wide open. Small peepers but they serve me well. I buy mass consumer products, but I can't swim with mass consciousness :) I'm going upstream. You could have swam with me if you wanted but you couldn't keep up. You see, the currents strip away your guises. You were but a different sorta fish. Never a salmon to begin with. That's why it's so difficult. That's what I was trying to tell you.

So be human, but act like an entity with a conscience and don't try to set up smoke screens for me to wander through.

A loving heart would know, better a bitter-sweet memory than a bitter future. Better to let go than to love and lie. You bring back the terrible memories that you wanted to erase for me.

I will not make one mistake twice.